Love,Chance or Choice?

When we meet the right person to love
when we're at the right place at the right time,
that's chance.

When you meet someone you're attracted
to, that's not a choice. That's chance.

Being caught up in a moment (and
there's a lot of couples who get together because of
this)
is not a choice. That's also a chance.


The difference is what happens
afterwards. When will you take that infatuation, that
crush, that mind-blowing attraction to the next level?
That's when all sanity goes back, you
sit down and contemplate whether you want to make
this into a concrete relationship or just a fling.
If you decide to love a person, even with his or her faults,
that's not a chance. That's choice.

When you choose to be with a person, no matter
what, that's choice. Even if you know
there are many people out there who are more
attractive,smarter and richer than your mate, and
yet, you decide to love your mate just the same,
that's choice.


Infatuation, crushes, attraction comes
to us by chance. But true love that lasts is
truly a choice. A choice that we make.
Regarding soul mates, there's a
beautiful movie quote that I believe is
so true about this: " Fate brings you
together, but it's still up to you to make it
happen."
I do believe that soul mates do exist.
That there is truly someone made for you. But it's
still up to you to make the choice if you're going to
do something about it or not. We may meet our soul
mates by chance, but loving and staying with our
soul mates is still a choice we have to make.

Stop that will you?

Some people has their own way of ruining your day.No matter if your path never actually passed each other or no matter how you avoid them. I would never know if they did it intentionly or it just happened to be.

For me,these people is like a bloody prick in my skin.I dont want to have anything to do with them. But they are everywhere.As if waiting to pounce on me when the time comes.

They tried to ruin every single of my plans.They think it's only them who has life. They expect you to accomodate them.Who the hell they think they are?

I'm sure everybody has these type of people around their life.They are indeed the most hateful spesies in the world.

I HATE THEM!!!!CAN SOMEONE PUT THEM OUT OF THIS PLANET?

Rihanna reveals painful details

Breaking her silence finally after several months of speculation, Rihanna sat down with Diane Sawyer and in part two of her interview,she gives the heart-wrenching details of that fateful night, claiming that while it was all happening, he "had no soul in his eyes."

To hear Rihanna recount the events of the evening is shocking, mostly because she confirms all of the worst details, including the fact that one point, Chris threatened to kill her for phoning her assistant. She insists she knew he would never go through it, using his words as a scare tactic to keep her quiet, but the physical abuse that she recounts was very real:

"I fended him off with my feet from one … side of the car, but … it was not like, it was not like a fight with each other. I just … I really just wanted it to stop…I was bleeding. I was swollen in my face. So there was no way of me getting home, except for, my next option was to get out of the car and walk. Start walking in a gown, in a bloody face. So I really don't know what my plan was. I didn't have a plan. That whole night was not part of my plan."

She recalls that by the time the police reached the scene, she was already brutally "battered" and when asked what caused the fight initially, she would only say that he was lying to her:

"I caught him in a lie. And he wouldn't tell the truth … I was being more annoyed at that point in our relationship he had to lie about something so stupid, I couldn't take that he kept lying to me. And he couldn't take that I wouldn't drop it. And … it was ugly."
Along with shining some light on the details of that evening, she also divulges into why, after all the pain he caused her, she returned to him for a period of time. She insists that she was feeling a "host ofemotions " and that her love for him "blinded" her from seeing the reality of the situation. She said, "The physical wounds go away, you put it in the back of your head and you start lying to yourself subconsciously."

Feeling "lonely" and "humiliated," especially after the leak of the photo of her face after Chris' attack, it took her getting over the hurdle of feeling the need to protect Chris before she could walk away:

"I just said to him, 'I can't do this.' I resented him. I resented him so much. And I always put the tough face on and try to, I can do anything face, and just try to play it off. But he knew. He knew it. He kept asking me, 'You hate me, don't you? You hate me,'" she told Sawyer. "And I would lie and I would say, 'No, no. And … I did hate him. … Everything about him annoyed me. So finally … I just said, we can't … we can't do this. I cannot continue to do this."

Finally, though she says she has grown and feels like the worst of the incident is behind her, she makes it clear that in the end, it is something that she will always take with her, a piece of her that can never be healed:

"The thing that men don't realize, when they hit a woman, it's… the face, the broken arm, the black eye, it's going to heal. That's not … the problem. It's the scar inside. You flashback. You … you remember it all the time. It comes back to you whether you like it or not. And it's painful. So I don't think he understood that. They never do."

WHAT A GIRL NEEDS......

She needs to be treat with respect
respect her for who she is........

She needs to have her privacy
She doesn't owe anyone explaination

She needs to be treated with TLC
Give her some love & hugs.......

She needs some time for herself
Give her a break!it's her life!

Revelation:The Dirty Deeds of the Gypsy

And then the nightmare begun
Not only for her
But also for those around her
She'll be their greatest nightmare

She's like the Satan
Tricking people to believe
That she's an angel
Luring the innocent to her abyss

Playing the part of the angel so well
That she really believe that she is
Little does she knows that
There's a different between both

A woman of loose moral
Who infested minds around her
Throthling those in her grasp
Will be burn in hell

Spreading malicious rumors of others
Rumors that belongs to no one but her
The rumors were all about her sins
She tried to put the blame to elsewhere

Put others in bad light
Spreading that other's no good
Soiled other's reputation
Calling others sinners

Destroyed other's life
Blocked other's every opportunity
Ruined other's family
Creating tension in other's love nest

She acts very well
She deserved the best actress award
She blinded everyone
With her lies

Those who are awake
Those who didn't take her words
They will suffer a million times
She'll never let them get away

She lives in hell
She'll hurt those around her
If she can't be happy
No one else can

She's creating a hell on earth
She's digging the pit of fire
She's preparing for the day
To bury everyone along with her

She'll never get to do that
She'll never succeed
She'll never wins
Her battles are lost forever

But the day will come
The day that her karma
Will return to her
To repay what she did

The good will always triumph
Over the bad one,
She'll burn in hell
Burning eternally for what she did

Genesis:A gypsy woman's beginning

Look into the mirror now,
Look into the reflection,
Look deep into it,
What do you see in it?

I can tell you what you see,
A woman looking back at you,
A miserably insane woman,
Her eyes tore deep into your heart.

Her mind is chaotic,
Her hair's a mess,
Her face's inhuman,
She looked very disheveled.

But she thinks she's beautiful
She thinks she's one smart ass
Who will get away from anything.
And no one will know her dirty deeds.

She thinks she's invincible,
She thinks she's capable,
She thinks she's irreplaceable,
She thinks she has it all.

She chanted all these day a night,
Trying to hypnosis herself,
Making herself believe,
That there's no one else but her.

She lives in her own world,
She world where she rules,
Where she's an enchantress,
In her own crazy bubble of dream

One day the bubble busted.
Her dream world has gone,
She has to pack her soul
And live in the reality

She thought she still rules
Thinking everyone will bow to her
Somehow it didn't turn out right
Everything's against her will

That's when the reality sank in
The world's not what she's seeing
As in her color tinted glass
She just can't accept the truth

So,she started to wonder around
Ruining life of those around her
Poisoning other with her filthy tongue
That's what a gypsy woman does.

She hides her dirty deeds very well
Thinking that no one'll discover them
She'll always be the proper one
The rest will be the gypsies

Soon,her tracks were exposed
The news spreads like wild fire
Her facade illusion were broken
Showing her wicked persona

Sequel to the mistake

When you was still a toddler,
You touched the stove out of curiosity,
Curiosity kills the cat,
So you got your hands burned & scarred.

When you was still a kid,
You played with fire,
The glow of the flame's very enchanting,
So you burned down the house.

When you were a junior at school,
You played all day long,
The homework's left unattended,
So you end up in retention class.

When you are in high school,
You wanna be a cheerleader,
You wanna dress like an adult,
So,you end up looking like a whore

When you have a crush on a senior,
You go on dates and movies,
You thought you were the coolest in school.
So,your parents found out and you were grounded.

When you go to college,
You wanna go where your friends go,
It doesnt matter what the subject is,
So you wasted 4 years studying rubbish.

When you graduate from college,
You wanna earn 10k a month,
That was what they said in college,
so, you end up jobless.

When you found the job,
You want to find a higher ranking job,
After all,you thought you know all about the job,
So,you end up being a laughing stock.

You meet your mr/ms right
There's butterflies in your tummy,
You thought you'll live happily ever after,
So, you end up with a broken heart.

You like to savour food,
As long as it's edible,
You'll eat anything,
So, you end up with all sorts of sickness.

You thought life's too short,
Too short to missed out on anything,
You take risk unnessesarily,
So,you end up with nothing in your name.

You live life fast and furious,
You thought you were james dean,
You drive fast and furious too,
So ,you'll die prematurely like James Dean too.

Don't hate me...

Rebelious is my first name
I like to go against the flow
Don't like to be a common person
I prefer to be my unique self

Some of you can't accept this
You think i'm outrageous
You even hated me
Coz I'm special

Don't be jealous
It's just that you are a coward
You don't dare to be yourself
You don't even know what you want

Miserable poor thing......

Don't hate me just because you are a coward....

It's a mad mad world

It's a mad mad world here
The ocean's tide has gone havoc
The solar system's ruined
The leaders have lost their mind

People has gone nuts
Their system went haywire
Their network has shutdown
Their brain went mushy

What the hell wrong in here?
Everybody is so f****ng blind!
What the hell they are thinking?!
It's no difference between them and the zombie

Can they tell between the good and the bad ones?

Anti Malaysia?

Recently,I've received an invitation to join the Anti Malaysia group from a neighboring country. Why are these people forming a group to go against Malaysia?
I'm feeling so disgusted with the creator of this group.

It's very funny and confusing on why this group of people hate our country so much and yet their fellow countrymen and women keep coming to our shore to work.Both legally and illegal.They even refused to go back to where they belong when our government tried to send them back.

The men usually work in the construction field and the women usually work as domestic helpers.I think that this is one of the main reason for the increased of crime rates in Malaysia.

Housing areas that are located nearby the construction sites are usually prone to have burglary and robbery cases. Most of those cases involved those construction workers that came from our neighbor country.

Households that hired domestic workers from our neighbor country faced a lot of problems too.Maids that runaway with the employer's valuables.Maids involved in vice during the day time when their employer's not around.Abused and frightened children and elderly in their care.Adding inedible substances in employer's food such as used sanitary pads.Inflicting injuries upon themselves to escape from employment.The recent case was maid accusing her employer of abusing her but new found injuries were found even though the employer was separated from her.

There was even an issue on the minimum salary of the domestic workers.How dare they demand for higher pay when they are not able to meet our requirement?!Some are even higher than what the government servants are earning here!This is too much to ask for.With a higher pay,we might as well hire some individuals with higher qualification.

Since there are so many dissatisfaction,this particular group should urge their fellow countrymen and women to go back to where they belong and not staying here causing us a lot of problems.Why do they still want to stay here when they hate us so much and when we are not rewarding enough for their half-hearted menial duties?

Don't even think about complaining when one can't even extinguish the burning in their country's forest.The burning itself has caused the smoke to be blown to our country affecting our citizens and we have to spend to send help to their country.

After all this and they are saying that they hate us now?

The rich's getting richer now.....

The rich's getting richer and the poor's going nowhere.Every single step is created to ensure that the rich ones will become even more properous.So, I think I wouldn't be able to shout out that slogan as I don't belong in the higher income group.
To add salt in the wound,there'll be some service tax on each principal credit card that each individual have.The real rich people doesn't need credit cards because they can afford to settle their payment with cash.The lower income group is the one who really needs the credit cards and now they are slapped with a RM 50 tax.That's crazy.
What about those who had signed up some gym membership and installment payment contract with their credit cards?They can't even cancel their card now.As these contracts usually bounded you for a year or two.So,they have no choice but to pay up for the tax.If these people can afford it,they wouldn't need to bounded by those installment plans and now they getting poorer due to the tax.
Anyone who doesn't know about the Indian society?Let me tell you about that.There's a huge contrast between the rich and the poor and there's almost nothing in between.With this rate,our middle income society will soon be extinct because we are going to be milked dry soon.
All these are purely my own opinion.I guess maybe I can't see things the way like some people does.Or maybe I'm just plain dumb to understand it.

Violence against women

They are being stereotyped, abused, killed in honor killings and so on.The violence against them are so great that it has become the subject of debates of all times.
There are many individuals and organizations out there whom tried to fight for the dignity of the women.But yet,this issue has never been decreased.It is because certain people in this society is still living in the stone age where women are treated as the weaker sex.And they can be used and discard to the liking of the men.The men who thought that they own the women just like any household object,the same men whom the women sought protection from and the very same group of men whom they used to trust.


News of violence against women are plastered on the newspapers everyday.Most of it started in a place where we called home.The patriarch of the household who violated the young and innocent girls.It's so disgusting!They are supposed to protect those innocent children but yet they had done so many disgusted act onto those girls.These has created a deep trauma in their lives.Something that they'll never forget. How could you forget it if it happened to you?.They should be a heavier punishment for those beasts,like what I've seen in some documentaries from some middle eastern countries.To cut off whatever body part that have committed crime.


Domestic violence comes next.It is very sad when a woman had unknowingly chosen a wife beater as a husband.The man who had vowed to provide and to love the woman whom he married unconditionally.But he had break the vow when the first word of abuse came out from his lips and even worse,to strike the wife with his bare hands.Usually the husband will feel guilty and ask for forgiveness from the wife after the incident.This is where the trouble starts.He did it once and got away with it.Then it'll become a habit to him.The wife will just keep those incidents to herself until it was too late.It's either it has became so serious that she couldn't take those beatings anymore or when she's DEAD.It goes the same with the violent boyfriends.


A man should never strike a woman no matter what as they are much stronger than woman.It is never right to hit a woman and never a reason for them to do so!

Next,there is the pathetic former boyfriends.We see it everywhere.A girl who was shot right in the face with a gun.She survived the ordeal but her face were totally gone and she had to go through reconstructive surgery.Then there was this beautiful newscaster from UK that has been raped and being splashed by acid sulphuric on the face.Her face is disfigured now but she survived and she stood out to tell her stories.Another was a girl who survived a gang rape and endured pain of being tattooed on her entire body.The recent one is a guy who killed his former girlfriend.Imagine the devastation of the girl's family.All these were done by some former boyfriends that refused to let go of a love gone sour and that had gone all out to destroy the lives of those girls involved.What I mentioned here are just a tiny portion of horrible things that had happened around us.

Some women have to live in fear because of those insane men.They had received numerous threats.Those threats came in many forms such as to mean bodily harms and even to kill!Those men will stop at nothing to cause trouble in the victim's life.Sometimes these kind of threats can never be a proof for the victims to lodge a police report as nothing can be done until the victim is actually harmed.But most of the victims are reluctant to go to the authority as they are afraid of reprisal.

Are women's lives not worthy?Do they really deserve these kind of treatment?It really makes me wonder if I'm safe.Is there any organization that can protect us?Will I be the next victim?

Touched by an angel

I saw a stranger in my dream
A beautiful stranger
Came into my dream
Giving me hope that I've lost

Came into my dream last night
A god sent angel from heaven
An angel to show me some love......

Whispering words of hope
Showing the way God works
Guiding me to the steps of heaven

See into my soul
Read my mind
Touch my heart


To realise that it's just a dream
Really tore me apart and into pieces
I felt like my heart being stabbed
It's so painful to be awake

The moment i woke up from the dream
I still can feel the love around me
Lingering in the air that I breathe


How I wish it could stay
Staying forever like that
Forever in the world of dream
Where the happiness is always around......

The feeling is exhilarating
To be so loved by an angel

How could it be just a dream?
It should be more than just a dream..

Fate & Destiny?

There are something called fate and destiny.
We were told that our life is pre-destined,
Pre-destined when we were still in the womb.
Whether it's a good life or a bad one......

When something bad happened to us.
We thought it was meant to be like that.
It happened to us because it's fated...
Fated to happened in our lifetime......


My life is too precious.
Too precious to be controlled.
Controlled by the so called FATE.
And the so called DESTINY!


Don't they know that it's their own life?
Can't they run their own precious life?

Rather to leave it to the unknown..
Rather than to surrender to fate,
Or is it the destiny?.
If so,the life would have no meaning

Stop giving yourself excuse!
We are born with mind of our own.
We are capable of running our own life.
We can make things happen for ourselves!

It's the matter of our mind.
Whether we want it or not?
Preseverance and confidence,
That's all we need.........

Don't just give up when you failed.
It's from failure that make us succeed.
Don't just surrender to fate and destiny.
We are entitled for better things.......

Fate and destiny?

I won't let it rule my life.
I won't surrender to them.
They can't stop me from what i want.
What i want,i'll get them..........

I know it will be a harsh journey ahead.
I know i'll have to shed some tears.
I know i'll have to make some sacrifices.
I also know that I'll achieve my dreams.

Nothing ever will stop me.
No one else can stop me.
I'll do what i have to.
To realise my dreams and ambition.

If I were to give up.
Just like that without fighting.
I might as well jump off the cliff.
For there's no meaning to life anymore.


There's only one thing,it's called FAITH....

What goes around comes around

It happened before....
Only God knows why....
It's the karma
Came to haunt you

You didn't learn your lesson
You took it for granted....
Or you think you're invincible?
There's no such thing as karma

If you love yourself,
You should do some good deeds for your future
For you don't want to suffer in the future

But if you don't listen
May God bless your soul
But you can't run away from your past
Because what you do,will eventually come back to you.

I hope that you'll return to the right path soon.

Insane promises

So many times that i turned a blind eyes
Denying myself the truth that I saw in you
The one who's been hiding behind the veil
The veil of deception that has blinded me

You are not the only at fault here
I do have some responsibility too......
I was covered by my own blanket of insecurities
So insecure that I trusted your sweet lies.....

You know what's on my mind
I confided my secrets to you
I poured out my feelings to you
There's nothing that I withhold

You know of my dreams and ambitions
You know what I really needed
That's when you use the informations
To manipulate me to your advantage
It was so stupid of me........
To believe that you really cared
Really cared about my feelings..
That you are willing to hurt me so much

Making all those empty promises
Promises that you never intended to keep
You promised me a lot of things
Promises laced with lies and venom

Love is so blind...
Why do I fell for that?
Believing in you......
That you are someone that I could trust

The crazy promises
The ilogical lies
What's wrong with me?
It seems I lost my mind

Wicked

Taken aback when those words came out from (her)his mouth.
Someone that I thought I could trust.
Someone whom I treated like a friend.

Such words are never meant to come out from a friend.
They were meant to be spoken by an enemy.
An enemy who wants to topple me.

Guessed (she)he had revealed his true color.
Showing me (her)his true intention.
To poison me with (her)his venomous words.

(she)He may had (her)his ways now.
But I believe in one thing.
The wicked ones will always suffer from God's wrath....

Come on!Blame them all on me.

Sorry for the success that you'll never achieve in your life.A pathetic loser.

Sorry for seeing the substances being abused by you.Deteriorating health that you'll have.

Sorry for the pathetic companions you have in your life.Birds of the same feather that flocks together.

Sorry for the mistakes that you made.You'll never learn from the past.

Sorry for seeing you destroying your own future.With your own bare hand.

Sorry for your ignorance.You'll always be the dim witted one.

Sorry for your selfishness.You'll never know the joy of giving.

Sorry for your greediness.But you'll never get anything out of it.

Sorry for seeing you making a complete fool yourself.Telling lies to make yourself look good.

Sorry for the grave that you dig for yourself.Digging deeper and deeper.

Sorry for the wish that will never come true for you.You are simply hopeless.

Sorry for the existence of you in this world.Your mother brought you here.

Sorry for the fact that you are who you are.Trying so hard to be something that you are not.

Sorry for the fact that you can't never reach out far in your life.Running around in your circle of misery.



I'm so sorry....if that make you feel better

Live for the present

Live for the present and the future.The past is just a reference.

Some people just couldn't do that.They are stuck in the past and they'll never move forward and be happy.Misery is their first name.They'll make sure that you'll never move on like them.Make no interaction with these people because they'll drag you along with them.

I wonder why?

Wonder why some people can be so pathetic.Giving you 10' 000 promises that they don't intend to fulfill. Disappoint you again and again. Treating you like a fool and yet expecting you to have faith in them.They'll throw tantrums if you don't.

Do they think that it's their birth right to do that to others?Do they think that they are the center of the universe?Do they think that only them have feelings?What are they thinking?

We can't wish for them to be swiped away from the face of the universe just like that.These kind of people will always be around.Guess it's a test from GOD.The only thing that can be done is to pray to God for the wisdom and patience to survive among these people.

Bullies

Bullies,does it ring a bell to anyone out there?They come in all forms.School bullies,neighbourhood bullies,workplace bullies,road bullies and the list could go on forever.We'll encounter them in one way or another.They are the people who shoved you around like you are nobody and as if they the center of the universe.They'll drain us emotionally and physically.They'll always leave an everlasting impression on those who crossed their path.

It's funny how their own issue became the nuisance to the others. Low esteem, problem within the family,abused childhood and so on.Just because of those,do they automatically entitled the right to lash out all their discontentment on us? Wow!
This is just not fair for us!!

Congratulation!We had unwillingly became their punching sacks,just because they are feeling inferior.They think they can shoved us around like we are nobody,to make them feel better.

When they were still young,they snatched their playmates toys.They'll make their schoolmate carry their books and bags.They even formed a clique at school with them as the leader.And this make them feel superior as they can kick anyone out of it or force anyone to join them.They can even boycott you from your own friends.

Though they were still young,they can be very evil.They'll spread malicious lies about people who doesn't follow their way or orders.They sure know how to run a smear campaign.Imagine what those bullies will grow up to be.Actually ,I wouldn't want to know.

Just when we thought that we can escape from all this nightmares as we grow up,it became even worse.At work,by doing nothing your colleague will take all the credits from your work. When you get promoted and a raise,their eyes will become green.By then,they will figure out a way to topple you down.Here goes the smearing campaign again.You slept with the boss,you're the homewrecker,you breach the trust of the company and you can afford your lifestyle because you are a thief until you leave the company.

Things are getting worse now.Thought you can seek some comfort and solace in your partner but the bullies in his/her family said you are just acting up to gain sympathy.That you are not good enough for them.Jumping out of the pan ,then into the fire.They'll schemed and pushed you to the edge just because of jealousy. Finally, it's the entire family against you.

Then the bully manifested in the form of your friends too.They were so nice at the beginning because they wanted to gain your trust.They want to know your deepest secrets and your whereabouts.They know your weakness now.Then they'll use it to their own advantage.They'll manipulate you and coercing you into getting something that they want.When you tried to stand up for yourself,they'll turn the table around.Making you a bad person while they'll always be the nice one.

These bullies don't have a life.They gain their happiness by inflicting pain on others.I do hope that they'll get a taste of their own medicine someday....

New Orleans

New Orleans,
Holding so much fascination about this place,
The religion and the people,
The most well known one being the Mardi Gras.

New Orleans,
Stories and legends originate from this place too,
Witches,vampires,voodoo and so on,
Are they real?

New Orleans,
It a magical place to me,
It's working it's charm on me,
Even when I'm half way across the earth from it.

New Orleans,
What really makes me feel that way,
It's mysterious and charming at the same time,
The feeling's just unexplainable.

New Orleans,
Will it be like what i've always imagined?
Just like what I read in books?
Or what I've always dreamed about?

Sexual Attraction

Sexual attraction........
What does it means to me?
My ability to attract in or
erotically attracted to another person ?
I think it's very important in a relationship.
What's the point if two people in relationship
that is void of sexual attraction? It's a waste
of time.

To me,it's a very funny emotion.
That people can be attracted to each other
sexually without love.But not love without sex.

Way too many times that people tend to over
analyze on their crush subject.We did some mental
rundown on our subject's lifestyle and hobbies or even their
physical attributes to confirm our feelings for them.Putting
in a lot effort to get to know each other.But things still don't
work out for them.What really happened?
It's lack of sexual attraction between them.

Well,human learn through trial and errors. I think we should
change our perceptionof love. Shallow some may say, but I
think we should be able to pass the 'Sexual Attraction' test
before anything else.

It's not fair!!

It's not fair!
While you worked your ass off,
When some douchbag takes all the credits,
Without even a word of gratitude.

It's not fair!
When some bitch wants her own privacy,
While she pokes her bloody nose into your business,
With no respect for you.

It's not fair!
While you're making effort to work things out,
When some asshole just sit there and do nothing,
As if they are the BOSS.

It's not fair!
While you worked to earn a living,
When some people tried to lay their hand on your income,
Some bloody free loaders.

It's not fair!
While you just want to be yourself,
When some people criticizes and judges you,
Who do they think they are?GOD?

It's not fair!
When you want to be a better person,
While some people went on smearing campaign,
So that you'll be among the dirt like them.

It's not fair!
When you sacrifice for love,
While somebody abused you,
Treating you inhumanely.

It's not fair!
When you worked hard established something,
While some people tried to take it away from you,
As if they deserve it.

It's not fair!
When you are born as who you are,
While somebody tried to deny your ethnicity,
As if you need their permission to be who you are.

It's not fair!
While you are docile in nature,
When somebody will try to manipulate you to their advantage,
Like a pawn in the chess game.

It's not fair!
While somebody always preached their " holier than thou" attitude on you,
When they are just trying to justify their own fault,
Painting you in the color of their own guilt.

It happened again....

I fought so hard to keep it away,
I thought that I have won the battle,
Thought I could live like anyone else.

Slowly,it creeps into my mind,
Poisoning my soul as it goes,
Destroying my body.

I'm feeling so restless now,
My body struggling for air,
My eyes are straining to see things properly.

It has happened so many times,
So many times that I've lost count,
Frequency doesn't really matters to me now.

There's only one thing that matters now,
Will I defeat it again?
Will I ever survive this battle?