The dream maker is being so persistent and insistent. Bringing the same dream, same character with a slight variation each time for every other days for almost 2 months now.
I'm learning to control my consciousness during my waking hours. Suppressing the thought of it. Sometimes if I'm busy enough, it is totally banished to some hidden dungeon in the some dark corner of my mind. But this crazy recurring dreams keep reminding me of it again and again, creeping into my mind at night creating all these uneasiness in me. It's my conscious mind dueling with my subconscious mind.
I don't have a clue of what that tragic episode going to brings to me except sadness and tears. Is it so significant that my dream maker has to make me go through this crazy cycle of dreams again and again? What is it trying to tell me? What's the hidden meaning behind it? What is hidden deep inside my subconsciousness that this matter has escalated to this point? Why does it affecting me so much that I can't escape it even in my dreams? How much longer do I need to endure this ordeal?
What kind of blessing in disguise in store for me this time? It is really worth for all the emotional havoc and breakdown that I'm going through right now?