Medley of feelings

I feel sad
I feel hopeless
I feel angry
I feel hateful

What matters the most?

Nothing really matters anymore. Nothing.....

Have You Ever?

Ever feel so blue that the sky seems red when you looked up?

Ever feel so hopeless that you wished the world ends sooner?

I don't have the vocabulary to describe
this feeling I am having now.

What will you do?

What will you do when you are all alone in this dog eat dog world?

What will you do when you don't get the support you needed?

What will you do when the world goes against you?

What will you do when people hate you for being yourselves?

What will you do when no one believe in you ?

What will you do when people think that they can take whatever they want from you?

What will you when someone trying to get in the way of your life?

What will you do when people want their share of your success?

What will you do when bad memories seems to be haunting you forever?

What will you do when you remember how nasty others treated you?

What will you do when someone spreading malicious rumors about you?



What will you do? What can I do?

Some Meatless Evening

Going meatless for a day can be difficult when you have been an omnivore for your entire life but it sure does make some creative juice running while preparing the menu.

Simply Chinese Delights

Just a bit of Chinese ham in cooking can totally turn a simple dish around. Shanghai Rice with ham is a simply heavenly and yet easy dish that I've always loved. Pairing it with the 3 cups chicken dish here. First time cooking this and thank God it turned out just nice.

I Have Dream

I'm a very simple person with some simple dreams. First, I hope to flip some burgers at my very own McDonalds. Secondly, make coffee and frappucino everyday at my own Starbucks. I'll be the happiest person if I could own a shop selling my favorite Monchichi. Last but not least, some simple shipping containers stacked together which I can call my home.

That's all I want!

Sleepless Again

Been tossing around at nights for the 8th nights. Whenever I tried to close my eyes, my brain seems to be processing a million of things that I've to do. Endless chores and planning to complete. It's very obvious that they are an ongoing process but there's no way I could switch off my working mode in the evening.

Might need some sleeping medication soon....

A Blast From The Past

A sexy portrait of The Pop Queen from the 90's

Just Me

A Grandmother's sex advice to her granddaughter

1. To know if you are both in love, you feel a "connection" in bed. If you feel ALONE in bed when having sex, you are with the WRONG man. This is CRITICAL! The connection of mind, body, soul!

2. There is real love that everyone wants but it does not happen to everyone — it is called "soul-mates," spiritual, supernatural. This is the highest form of love — it is a religious feeling. You have found God. You know instantly, "love at first sight." You know he was meant for you and he is your real husband, and he knows you are his wife-to-be.

3. When having sex and the female does not enjoy it, I strongly recommend that the female gets on top of the man. It always works, the female has a climax and enjoyment. If he wants to perform oral sex on you, enjoy it!

4. Always make sure the man's penis is CLEAN. Make sure he washes it with soap and water before coming to bed.

5. Many men are PIGS. They want sex every day! You are not obligated to say "yes" to please him if you do not feel up to it. You never do anything unless you want to. To pacify the pig, give him manual stimulation!

6. Never, never do ANAL sex! You can get diseases, especially if after anal, he goes vaginal. Also ORAL sex is dangerous if there are cuts in your mouth, or sores. Men love it. Don't swallow his SEMEN! You can get throat STDs. There is no cure for herpes. Chlamydia and gonorrhea have no symptoms and can leave you sterile. You both would need antibiotics!

7. Some men are pre-mature ejaculators; that is very frustrating and bad for the female. He needs help to learn to control himself until the female is ready.

8. There should be foreplay to get the girl ready. As you get older, more experienced, you can skip all that and it is over in 7 minutes.

9. Perhaps you already know all these hints. I hope you find it helpful; I love you and do not want you to make a mistake. Never marry someone and say "Well, I can always get a divorce if I'm not happy." When there are children, you are never divorced. The ex-husband will be in your life forever, so make sure you marry the right guy.

10. Make sure you never marry an abusive control freak. When a man loves you, there is respect. He will be proud of you and your achievements — not jealous and needing to know your every move, or keeping you away from family and friends. Make sure he comes from a happy family with a loving mother and father who have a good marriage.

11. Never, never tell a boyfriend if you have any savings, inheritance-to-be or your salary when you graduate. Some men look for a woman with money. I do not respect such men! If he has credit card debt, DUMP him immediately! You only discuss finances with the man you want to marry.

12. Should you date a man who is stingy, dollar conscious, and you love to spend money, the relationship will never work unless you are a thrifty person yourself, then you can put up with him.

13. When dating a new man, do not feel obligated to have sex with him because he bought you dinner. To avoid this, pay for your own dinner. You are getting to know each other. You are not a homeless person who needs a meal.

14. Be happy, be with someone whose company you enjoy and you can't live without, and respect him. Watch out for womanizers, drunks!

15. You can make sure you know a man well by dating him on weekends and vacations. If he's unsure about committing, DUMP him. No excuses.

16. Hope you find the happiness you deserve. There should be love, respect, admiration, trust, and a mental and physical connection. If you find "true love," you will live happily every after. That is true.

Sunday Evening

Dinner at Basil,Bangsar

Lemonly Sweet