Peekaboo ! 29092015

I think the biggest misconception about me is people really don't know who I really am. They see the party side of me, they see the crazy side of me. But I also have a laid-back side. You know, I'm chill, down to earth. If you want to grab a cup of coffee and just talk about life, I can do that.

Nicole Polizzi

How Do You Like Your Eggs 19092015

Poached egg or fried egg? It's entirely up to you how you live your life, what you attract into your life and how you eat your eggs....

#elise&emma #mynewbabies #my essentials #practicalaromatherapy #thesecret #rollonblend

Meeting Baby Ashton 09042015

Visited Frances and baby Ashton today. Look at his hair, so dark so original. He smells nice too. A very good boy. 

Kids like this makes me want one too but the thought quickly dissipated when I thought of those horrible little monster, little destroyer, little tantrums throwers and noisy crying and screaming and kicking kids. It's worse than watching a horror movie. The worst thing is, what will happen to my dogs ? I dare not imagine what will they do to my dogs. 

Not everybody is blessed with a nice and easy going baby like this.

A Little Break In Between 10032015

Bad timing on my side. I was stucked at the City Hall during their lunch break. No prize for guessing what I did. Instead of lunch, I went for dessert!

Dog Rules 100315

Christina Perri Live 03032015

The day has arrived! Christina Perri live in Kuala Lumpur. I never knew that she is such a cheerful girl in person. Maybe it was due to those heartbreak songs that she used to sings. Her newer songs are on the happier side, it makes you feel like you are falling in love all over again.

Shit, I feel like a damsel in distress

Day 5: Still having these recurring nightmares where I'm stuck at this busy junction and driving a manual car that just keeping dying on me. Its was 11 years ago that I got my driving license and my own car both almost at the same time. It was very courageous of me to drive around the busy town immediately after that. Things were always like that. I never have the chance to learn things slowly one at a time or practice whatsoever. I was always forced to pick things up right there and then. No time to think, no time to hesitate. No matter what's the circumstances, I just can't back out. I just don't have the choice. 

The feeling was kind of liberal back then. I was going everywhere ever since. Never have to be at the mercy of others when I  need them to give me a ride. Leaving whenever I want to, especially if I was meeting someone and that person was so not interesting, etc etc. Never have to wait for others. It was great until now. 

 My movements are restricted. Everything had to be couriered or delayed. I can't even go groceries  shopping! Thank goodness for home deliveries. I still have my health food supply. Else I don't know what kind of shit that I'll be eating for these few weeks.

But how about the rest of my life? I feel so helpless ,hopeless ,useless ,miserable .....without a car. Public transportation here sucks and I just hate the feeling of being at the mercy of someone else again. Asking for help seems like a foreign concept to me now. Perhaps, I was on my own for too long. 

A friend of mine jokingly reminded me that it's time for me to start looking for a boyfriend, maybe a temporary one for these few weeks. Friends ,boyfriends....I don't know, the idea of having to rely on someone else just doesn't feel right to me. Feels weird. I feel 'Shit, I have to rely on others now'. Maybe it were some bad experiences that I had when I had to ask for help. People showing me shit face, some family members somemore. People said I used them and cast them aside afterwards which never was my intention.  I treated him as one of my close friend and asked for his help, had to leave as soon as it was done. I thought he would understand but he didn't. People that always forced me to do things I hated insisting that I owed them a favor. I used to think that helping others is out of goodwill and not expecting return immediately. I always tried to return their kindness in someways. Proper ways that is within my  capabilities. But people never thought of it that way. They just make you feel like you are an asshole for asking for help in the first place and not returning their favor immediately just the way they wanted it.  

 So, is it even right for me to ask for help?

Pain

A torturing moment when you thought you could forget about it for the time being by drowning your head with distractions. The worst thing is you being sober for the entire time. Nothing can be done to drown out the pain. There's no way to escape at all.

A Grandmother's sex advice to her granddaughter

1. To know if you are both in love, you feel a "connection" in bed. If you feel ALONE in bed when having sex, you are with the WRONG man. This is CRITICAL! The connection of mind, body, soul!

2. There is real love that everyone wants but it does not happen to everyone — it is called "soul-mates," spiritual, supernatural. This is the highest form of love — it is a religious feeling. You have found God. You know instantly, "love at first sight." You know he was meant for you and he is your real husband, and he knows you are his wife-to-be.

3. When having sex and the female does not enjoy it, I strongly recommend that the female gets on top of the man. It always works, the female has a climax and enjoyment. If he wants to perform oral sex on you, enjoy it!

4. Always make sure the man's penis is CLEAN. Make sure he washes it with soap and water before coming to bed.

5. Many men are PIGS. They want sex every day! You are not obligated to say "yes" to please him if you do not feel up to it. You never do anything unless you want to. To pacify the pig, give him manual stimulation!

6. Never, never do ANAL sex! You can get diseases, especially if after anal, he goes vaginal. Also ORAL sex is dangerous if there are cuts in your mouth, or sores. Men love it. Don't swallow his SEMEN! You can get throat STDs. There is no cure for herpes. Chlamydia and gonorrhea have no symptoms and can leave you sterile. You both would need antibiotics!

7. Some men are pre-mature ejaculators; that is very frustrating and bad for the female. He needs help to learn to control himself until the female is ready.

8. There should be foreplay to get the girl ready. As you get older, more experienced, you can skip all that and it is over in 7 minutes.

9. Perhaps you already know all these hints. I hope you find it helpful; I love you and do not want you to make a mistake. Never marry someone and say "Well, I can always get a divorce if I'm not happy." When there are children, you are never divorced. The ex-husband will be in your life forever, so make sure you marry the right guy.

10. Make sure you never marry an abusive control freak. When a man loves you, there is respect. He will be proud of you and your achievements — not jealous and needing to know your every move, or keeping you away from family and friends. Make sure he comes from a happy family with a loving mother and father who have a good marriage.

11. Never, never tell a boyfriend if you have any savings, inheritance-to-be or your salary when you graduate. Some men look for a woman with money. I do not respect such men! If he has credit card debt, DUMP him immediately! You only discuss finances with the man you want to marry.

12. Should you date a man who is stingy, dollar conscious, and you love to spend money, the relationship will never work unless you are a thrifty person yourself, then you can put up with him.

13. When dating a new man, do not feel obligated to have sex with him because he bought you dinner. To avoid this, pay for your own dinner. You are getting to know each other. You are not a homeless person who needs a meal.

14. Be happy, be with someone whose company you enjoy and you can't live without, and respect him. Watch out for womanizers, drunks!

15. You can make sure you know a man well by dating him on weekends and vacations. If he's unsure about committing, DUMP him. No excuses.

16. Hope you find the happiness you deserve. There should be love, respect, admiration, trust, and a mental and physical connection. If you find "true love," you will live happily every after. That is true.

Skeleton In The Closet

When things around you are moving ahead
You kicked yourself for moving so slow
Just when you almost do that
You realised that it's your own secret
You will always one step ahead
Ahead of everyone else
You can't stop chuckling with the thought of that

Some skeleton in the closet I shall say

Bourgeois Me

People called me high maintenance,snobby, bourgeois and spoiled. What's wrong for having strong inclination for better things in life? Better food, better clothes or even better friends, don't everyone wished for those? Who wants to eat food scrap or wear torn and smelly clothes or befriend some cheapskate friends that give you problems? Raise your hands if anyone of you prefer those. Funny huh?

At least I earned those labels and they doesn't come for free.

Stones and Sticks Might Break Our Bones

I'm so glad to be able to know a few girl friends that are in the same situation like me. Someone who really how I feel and what I experienced without me having to elaborate much. Just a few simple sentences are all we ever need to express our dissatisfaction.

We've been cursed, back stabbed, smeared and scratched by those out of our circle. People cursed us for all things bad ahead of us. Idiots who back stabbed us thinking that we won't know what they did. Bitches tried to smear our reputation with some malicious lies and scumbags that had too much free time that actually use some effort to scratch our cars and everything else that we had. We've been called all sorts of horrible names such as loose women, husband or boyfriend stealer's, old maid and there's simply too much to further elaborate.

I really can't figure out why we are being treated like this? Just because that we are more career minded and we put everything else behind that? Just because we didn't get married earlier and cook for the husband every day? Just because we didn't have any kids yet and spending time cleaning up after them or shout at them like a mad woman when they get too naughty? Do all that really justify what we are being labelled?

My girl friend rejected this guy and he had the audacity to ask whether she's gay? What was this guy thinking? Is he the best in the world and one must be crazy for not falling at his feet? We really agreed that it was the best decision that my girl friend had made by rejecting him. He's a moron.

None of us really deserve what has been said about us but that's the fact of life. Bitter people with people with too much time. They like to spend time hating us and hatching some stupid plans to make our lives miserable. I believe in karma, do what you want for they will come back three folds to you but we don't think we'll be free to see that happens. We are just too busy with our lives.

FROM 100 TO 50 - WHEN DO WE LOSE OUR FRIENDS?

At 21 our social circle is at its largest with 100 including 13 'best' friends, 17 'close' friends and 70 acquaintances.
This number drops sharply to 68 by the time we are 29-years-old.
The decline continues to 63 at age 39, 43 at 49-years-old and plummets to around 41 when we hit 55.





Via Mail On Sunday

Wedding

Just came back from Irda's wedding.It's my first time attending a malay's wedding.An eye opener actually.There's no people waiting at the entrance to collect 'entrance fees' and recorded every single cent that you paid.I was being welcomed by the bride's parents.They made me feel very welcomed.I remember there was once that I stood at the reception for ages looking for my name in the guest list.I felt like a total idiot.That's totally disrespectful to me.Now back to the present.They are also very generous with the door gifts unlike the cheapskate candle that I got from another 'kiasu' couple,the bride to be exact.Until now,I don't know what to do with that candle.Maybe I could light it up during their funeral in future.It's not the value of the gift that I cared,it's the sincerity that matters.Everyone knows that the candle it's cheap but the bride was treating like a fool by the way that she handled things.A very fucked up wedding indeed....

What does a wedding actually means?It's a celebration of union between two individuals that love each other.Just like what I witnessed today.

It's not a meant of gaining profit like some fucked up kiasu people does.

Anyway,I wish Irda a wonderful beginning,and love to last a lifetime!

Sheep or wolf?

To remain ordinary, pathetic, beat-down, coasting through a miserable existence, like sheep herded by fate - or take control of your own destiny , releasing the caged wolf you have inside.To be the sheep or the wolf?

Myself

Tried to be someone else
But it doesn't seems to change anything
I'm quitting
Now, this is who I really am inside

Finally found myself
I've been fighting for it for so long

WHAT A GIRL NEEDS......

She needs to be treat with respect
respect her for who she is........

She needs to have her privacy
She doesn't owe anyone explaination

She needs to be treated with TLC
Give her some love & hugs.......

She needs some time for herself
Give her a break!it's her life!

Fate & Destiny?

There are something called fate and destiny.
We were told that our life is pre-destined,
Pre-destined when we were still in the womb.
Whether it's a good life or a bad one......

When something bad happened to us.
We thought it was meant to be like that.
It happened to us because it's fated...
Fated to happened in our lifetime......


My life is too precious.
Too precious to be controlled.
Controlled by the so called FATE.
And the so called DESTINY!


Don't they know that it's their own life?
Can't they run their own precious life?

Rather to leave it to the unknown..
Rather than to surrender to fate,
Or is it the destiny?.
If so,the life would have no meaning

Stop giving yourself excuse!
We are born with mind of our own.
We are capable of running our own life.
We can make things happen for ourselves!

It's the matter of our mind.
Whether we want it or not?
Preseverance and confidence,
That's all we need.........

Don't just give up when you failed.
It's from failure that make us succeed.
Don't just surrender to fate and destiny.
We are entitled for better things.......

Fate and destiny?

I won't let it rule my life.
I won't surrender to them.
They can't stop me from what i want.
What i want,i'll get them..........

I know it will be a harsh journey ahead.
I know i'll have to shed some tears.
I know i'll have to make some sacrifices.
I also know that I'll achieve my dreams.

Nothing ever will stop me.
No one else can stop me.
I'll do what i have to.
To realise my dreams and ambition.

If I were to give up.
Just like that without fighting.
I might as well jump off the cliff.
For there's no meaning to life anymore.


There's only one thing,it's called FAITH....